Showing posts with label reform. Show all posts
Showing posts with label reform. Show all posts

Sunday 26 October 2014

I Am Calling You Back


Tonight I need you around me.
Lend me a pinch of your insensitivity.
You see, with you gone, I am wary of this new found lingering balance.
I insist you tip it over. Push it down with your nonchalance.
This happiness. is SO unsettling, So is everyone's loving embrace
I need you to disregard my feelings right about NOW.
Come.  Put me in my place.

I need a reality check, For I am hanging by the thread
Of passionately believing again like every time you said
"When you are into something, you don't walk, you dive"
I am asking you to go ahead, Tell me I am being naive.

Yes You, I am calling YOU back.
I need you to stop my stride as I swim another mile.
This life is getting too good to be true. I'm considering living in denial.
My days - Increasingly getting the better of being jaded. Familiar.
Until I find myself being overtly serenaded. Peculiar.


Return to remind me how people get stressful.
Top it off with a dose of cynicism- Your instrument of the "successful"
Surely this positivity around me has gotta be a ruse
This increasingly seems like a dream, for I am nobody's muse
Tonight I need you to reinstate the mirage of a "soulmate"
And that when autumn arrives , I will fall - like an autumn leaf’s fate

So come along again.
Hurry. Break my flight
Its addictive.
Disconcerting.
Such Brightness.
This height.

Frown again.
Bring me down again
My ears are ringing with applause
Swish your sword . Stop this sound again.

Come
Ravage
destruct
Be the Savage

The fall is now my utopia
and will be my once upon a time
the Scars might be the cure
My pulse rises with every crime.

Take away this perfection.
You know you do it the best
You know I know you want to
Come Raise me the Tempest.






Picture Credits : OnceUpon

Sunday 26 May 2013

On slowing the fuck down



SO Dere,
Iv finally narrowed down on a particular course I want to do to supplement my Master's degree.I think the Science part of Science and all the experience requirements that admissions to these Govt. funded institutes ask for come with  is driving me plain nuts. Probably broading  my horizons and Getiing a taste of something new while still holding onto my love for science is precisely what i need. E
nrolment DONE(which bdw, was one HEEUGE bitch of an application)and i really do really feel lighter. I know this isnt really a life altering turn that i had desired,
but atleast my next 6 months (minimum) wont include fervently scrambling online like a fuckin retard  for  more/other/better options .