I Am Calling You Back

Tonight I need you around me.

Lend me a pinch of your insensitivity.

You see, with you gone, I am wary of this new found lingering balance.

I insist you tip it over. Push it down with your nonchalance.

This happiness. is SO unsettling, So is everyone's loving embrace

I need you to disregard my feelings right about NOW.

Come.  Put me in my place.

I need a reality check, For I am hanging by the thread

Of passionately believing again like every time you said

"When you are into something, you don't walk, you dive"

I am asking you to go ahead, Tell me I am being naive.

Yes You, I am calling YOU back.

I need you to stop my stride as I swim another mile.

This life is getting too good to be true. I'm considering living in denial.

My days - Increasingly getting the better of being jaded. Familiar.

Until I find myself being overtly serenaded. Peculiar.

Return to remind me how people get stressful.

Top it off with a dose of cynicism- Your instrument of the "successful"

Surely this positivity around me has gotta be a ruse

This increasingly seems like a dream, for I am nobody's muse

Tonight I need you to reinstate the mirage of a "soulmate"

And that when autumn arrives , I will fall - like an autumn leaf’s fate

So come along again.

Hurry. Break my flight

Its addictive.

Disconcerting.

Such Brightness.

This height.

Frown again.

Bring me down again

My ears are ringing with applause

Swish your sword . Stop this sound again.

Come

Ravage

destruct

Be the Savage

The fall is now my utopia

and will be my once upon a time

the Scars might be the cure

My pulse rises with every crime.

Take away this perfection.

You know you do it the best

You know I know you want to

Come Raise me the Tempest.

Picture Credits : OnceUpon

Cant keep you in

Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs. Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers eyes. Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers tears. What is it else? A madness most discreet, a choking gall and a preserving sweet. -- William Shakespeare

Written for a dear friend

I breathe you in

a whiff of life

Feel you diffuse

and fill my mind

Induced rush of blood

Renewed surge through my head

Your whiff soaks through my heart

As life imparted  to the dead

Head thrown back

I gently close my eyes

Let it work its magic

As you save my life

Locking and unblocking

Throughout length and breadth

Teasing and releasing

Spanning width and depth

Sinking deeper in,

It’s hypnotism grows

Exhilarating every cell of my being

 I seek you more

Alas, deceptive air,

Your ringing elation

Metamophoses to throbbing

Pricking, a  stinging sensation

Second by second,

In pieces and bits,

It corrodes and devours

Your toxicity hits

Sudden panicked heartbeat

It begins  to clog the mind

Constricted breathing

Its viscosity slowly blinds

air to mist,

Mist to smoke

Smoke to poison

Poison to choke

What filled and thrilled

Suddenly burned and blocked

Sucking life and blood

and osmotic shock

Once exhilarated smile vanishes

As life slowly drains

Once a face of serenity

Now contorted in pain

Hands; struggling and spilling

Eyes blurry: under the shadow of death

Self preservation kicks in

I cease to  hold my breath

Tears running down my cheeks,

Body struggling about,

Gasping for a breather

I choke you out