Sometimes I get so pissed at the small things while shunting my mind away from the big one's.
It has taken me years to stand up and say I
deserve better. Years to say “I’m so angry that you didn’t treat me better.” So many incidents before I could just stop giving a flying fuck about what repurcussions my reactions may have. But until i reached that stage (and thank goodness I reached that stage), i used to take it all in. Just because they were coming from near and dear one's (or atleast I assumed them to be).
So it was mostly incoming from them.. through all the harsh words, broken promises and the false beliefs that warped my worldview. And I accepted them out of whatever misplaced belief i had. But good God, the rage I could summon at a perfect stranger
who drove precariously close to the sidewalks. Like, dude, this is not your road, other people walk on that thing you are barging on, if yu have a car drive like a freakin PERSON or dont drive at all yu piece of driving shit!
Clearly, I needed to work on spending my emotional energy more
wisely.
The question is, have I ?
