You are all i am and hope to be, Ma:)

A BIG cyber hug and tons of birthday wishes to one the most beautiful and remarkable woman I’v known in my life. The most honest person I’v come across, an awe-inspiring perfectionist, and hands down, the Bestest Chef ever and so much more.

Life flies by and we find ourselves thousands of miles away from the ones we love. It is especially hard on birthdays when we want to simply pop in and hug you in person and take you out. I know I seem too caught up in my own little world sometimes, (hmmph, Aaj kal ke bacche I tell yu :P), but the truth is, I wish you knew how much you are loved even when those who love you are far away.

Ma, I just made a not-so-awesome version of the chicken curry you make, the other day. :)  I love making stuff that you taught me how to make. Because every time I do, it reminds me of you. I think of you when I fold my hands in prayer or wear  any flowery kurti, because it is SO you.

Mom, thank you over and over for everything you do and everything you are... Thank you for loving me through every tantrum (even though I don’t believe that I could possibly throw fits!), every mood swing (what!?) and anything I ever did that caused you worry or concern or heartache.

Aap awesome ho :) Happy Birthday!

Hey, that's no way to say goodbye

Not written by me. but hey, its almost like Leonard Cohen could read my mind while penning this down :) this just...makes me smile..a little sad, yes.. but mostly smile in nostalgia....this song really flipped my troubles away through a pretty hard time  :)

I loved you in the morning, our kisses deep and warm,

your hair upon the pillow like a sleepy golden storm,

yes, many loved before us, I know that we are not new,

in city and in forest they smiled like me and you,

but now it's come to distances and both of us must try,

your eyes are soft with sorrow,

Hey, that's no way to say goodbye.

I'm not looking for another as I wander in my time,

walk me to the corner, our steps will always rhyme

you know my love goes with you as your love stays with me,

it's just the way it changes, like the shoreline and the sea,

but let's not talk of love or chains and things we can't untie,

your eyes are soft with sorrow,

Hey, that's no way to say goodbye.

I loved you in the morning, our kisses deep and warm,

your hair upon the pillow like a sleepy golden storm,

yes many loved before us, I know that we are not new,

in city and in forest they smiled like me and you,

but let's not talk of love or chains and things we can't untie,

your eyes are soft with sorrow,

Hey, that's no way to say goodbye.

- Leonard cohen.

A furry angel,the savage beast and the undefined

 

He towered over them. Savagely, looking wild and yet so hurt…

His eyes, the shade of dark red, were seething. Emanating a dull fervour of ferociousness and something that wasnt just hunger, anger, lust or anything else.

She stayed put, pinned to the ground, trembling as she watched him rip the men apart.

The human instinct in her should have been horrified and appalled at his reckless, scary demeanour as his eyes met hers. And she was. 
She was terrified to the core..  But more from the reasons that may have made him like this...

She  should have stopped.

She should have run for her life while she still could..

But when has "should" made sense in love?

She should have… but she couldn’t.

She couldn't leave.

She couldn't leave him there alone.

Amidst the raw, displaced acts of treachery he exuded..She could sense the flicker of confusion on his face.

Almost as if he was tired of himself, tired of his nature, tired of his cruelty.

He was hurt, she could tell and so was she.. only, she would probably be his next victim of redemption once he was through with them. Yet she had the urge touch his hurt face and take away the pain that flowed like craters on the moon..

And as their faces came closer, his teeth snared, unapologetic, while her eyes widened in fear.. and a strong bout of absolute tenderness..

And just seconds away from a probable gruesome death… it dawned on her… This wasn't the fear of him.. it was the fear of not fearing him. 
Not fearing her death, if it meant his life. 
If it meant his redemption. 
If it meant his healing.

Only time would tell what this beast really wanted.

What he really was. 

But as of that very second, he was her undoing.