Eclipse

Another eclipse secures its legacy

as the moon veils her phase

with light facing inward, reflecting

the passing of life's days

For the majority it's just another day

For others it is a sign

Only a few see it for what it is

the passage of three and a half centuries in time.

Choose Your Poison.

Lesson #1 : Happiness is fleeting.
Lesson #2 : Suffering is not. It is infact relentless in its pursuit of morphing by deriving itself from one source to another. Sometimes out of sight but never out of mind, that sneaky little bitch.


And while the fight against suffering is the prima donna of existentialism, some sufferings make you feel alive. The pain of some is worth the fight. The pinch is worth the goosebumps. So on so forth. 

If loosing our suffering is not an option, why can't choosing our suffering be one.

After all if every individual has a limited number of fucks to give, should'nt it be of our choosing and no one else's? As insane as it sounds, maybe choosing our poison is the only derivative of happiness we can procure from it.

I am a sufferer and I will choose the fucks I and only I give and no one else.

P.S. : Maybe I would want that etched on my tombstone too. 

#ramblingsofacaffeinatedwoman

Premature Midlife Crisis?

Life these days

When your brain works with all the subtlety of a malicious child.

Moments of unnerving calm interspersed with phases of batshit wild.

Things He Never Said

.... I hear you

and this time

I will try to extend you a steady hand

instead of a ready retort

.... You want to know what my plan is?
My plan is that I love you 

.... and I am so so sorry  

for making your life harder 

because of that.

....  Today
That thing i promised you.
No excuses, No B.S
Regardless.
Today.

Brain Picking 101